"This text is like a Russian road: uneven, with bumps and potholes, with repairs in the middle of the highway. I have no navigator for Sergey’s life, so all I can do is drive by feel." In the book, Yegana Zhdabbarova attempts to reconstruct the short biography of her half-brother Sergey, born from her father’s extramarital affair. Following her brother’s route that led to his early and tragic death, the author discovers that through Sergey’s story emerges the story of a country at the end of the 1990s - early 2000s: interethnic tension, poverty, struggle for survival, an epidemic of addictions, and an identity crisis. At the same time, addressing her late brother's fate becomes an act of love and memory, the only way to connect the discrete events of his and her own life and overcome the cultural, religious, and existential divide. Yegana Zhdabbarova is a writer, poet, essayist, and author of the books "The Hands of the Women in My Family Were Not for Writing," "The Red Alarm Button," "Bosporus," and "Romberg's Pose."